Delicious Placebo

Well…. I’ve now had 3 ECT sessions and everyone remarked today at how much “more smiley” I was. Even Lumpy says I’m acting differently. Different? Yea I’ll agree with that. Better? Not positive about that yet. I’m feeling like after zap #4 things will really start to take shape. They say the effect is cumulative and that about halfway through I should start noticing big changes. If you’ve been saying prayers for me, or sending me good wishes, keep’em coming. Today for whatever reason I’m feeling ambitious. I’m feeling like there is a lot I want to do and I need to get to doing it. That’s a big change for me, considering just a week ago I was feeling like death sounded quite appealing. I hope things keep looking up. I hope I get back my ambition. I hope I will love myself again.