Delicious Placebo

Im not sure what other words to use to describe what I feel, but the world hurts me.  Every time I leave the house I am surrounded by harsh reminders or all that is wrong.  I still watch reality TV, but I think I have convinced myself that it’s not real, its fiction.  I can watch the absurdity ad laugh (usually).  I am in a permanent state of weltschmerz and its making me more and more agorophobic (oy! big words).  Today I didn’t even want to get out of bed because I knew the impending dread just wouldn’t get better.
Sorry for being such a downer, just had to get that out,

Hi ElJay land.. I was playing around on the 360 today and realized I have no friends (on my gamer profile).  Give me your gamertag, if you’re so inclined, so I can add you mmkay?

kthxbye

I have been getting into reading gadget blogs lately.  Actually, I have been reading a lot of odd blogs.  I get bored at work and they provide me with hours of entertainment.  I found this lovely item today while going back through Boing Boing Gadgets.:

Bubble-Blowing Dish-Scrubber Taunts ADHD Sufferers
Time to focus, lots of dirty dishes to clean. Oooh look, a bubble! Wow, I can blow more bubbles? Yay! Bubble bubble bubble, bubble bubble bubble. I’m tired of blowing bubbles, let’s do Jumping Jacks! Yay! Jumping Jacks stink, let’s eat candy ’til we puke! Yay! So sick, so many dirty dishes, the best $5 I ever spent. Firetruck!

1 What ended your last relationship?
!!  Ha! Ok no really.. it was just coincidence that we met as my relationship was going downhill.  My ex was an emotional void who was completely unaware of how to deal with me.  There was a lot of incompatibility that I tried to ignore, but ended up being our demise.

2 When was the last time you shaved?
Ummm… shaved what?  Under my arms was Friday.  I can’t remember when I last shaved my legs.  Ah the joys of being a redhead with very little body hair.

3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
Sleeeeping

4. What were you doing 5 minutes ago?
Installing Deepest Sender plug-in for Firefox

5. Are you any good at math?
Not so much

6. Your prom night?
A perfect snapshot of what my teen years were like.  Went with my ex (we dated 3 years in high school) who didn’t want to be there.  Hung out in a friends hotel room while they got smashed on Budwiser, and I ended up in a room with this girl I had the hots for and her date, a guy I had the hots for.

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
My great-grandfather played for the major league baseball for the NY Giants in the 40’s

8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?
Yes, I have a Federal Student Loan that I’m currently trying to pay off

10. Last thing received in the mail?
Natural Solutions magazine (formerly Alternative Medicine magazine)

11. How many different beverages have you drunk today?
Pepsi, water

12. Do you ever leave messages on people’s answering machines?
Yes, I actually prefer talking to machines rather than people

13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
Billy Joel – We Didn’t Start The Fire tour

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
No

15. What’s the most painful dental procedure you’ve had?
Wisdom teeth, no doubt.  I have had 4 root canals, one molar pulled (on a root canaled tooth that went bad), and oral surgery on my jaw bone for an abscessed root (from another root canal).  Yea, wisdom teeth were by far the worst

16. What is out your back door?
A small yard, an alley full of construction garbage and rats, and the backs of other houses

17. Any plans for Friday night?
Work, just like every weeknight (I work 4pm – 12:30am)

18. Do you like what the ocean does to your hair?
ewwwww nooooo

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas?
Nope

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
When I was in elementary and junior high school yes, every year

21. Do you drunk dial people?
No, I don’t like calling people.  however, I have been known to drunk chat online

22. Some things you are excited about?
Nothing     (ah, gota love these major depressive episodes)

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
I only like jello before it gels (yes, I drink it.. )

24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
Nope.

25. Describe your keychain:
I don’t have one.  My car key is all by itself, and my work keys are on my ID badge lanyard thingy.  I don’t carry house keys, thats my mans job.

26. Where do you keep your change?
In a little vase type jar on top of my wardrobe (tall thing with doors and drawers.. in case you didn’t know)

27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
Not counting faire, Probably in 1999/2000 when I was teaching computer applications classes

28. Do you sleep with the door to your bedroom open or closed?
Closed, to keep the dogs from wandering off.  It wouldn’t matter either way though

29. What’s your excuse for this survey?
All the cool kids are doing it, and it was exciting that and I have the same concert virginity musician

The Rules:
1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions.

1. You wake up at Seatac, SFO, LAX. You wake up at O’Hare, Dallas-Fort Worth, BWI. Pacific, mountain, central. Lose an hour, gain an hour. This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time.

2. This is a $4,000 sofa, upholstered in Italian silk. It is not just a couch. – American Beauty

3. There’s a shortage of perfect breasts in this world. It would be a pity to damage yours. – The Princess Bride

4. What was that honey? It was BAD! It had no fire, no energy, no nothing! So tomorrow from 5 to 7 will you PLEASE act like you have more than a two word vocabulary. It must be green. & – The Fifth Element

5. Listen, strange women lyin’ in ponds distributin’ swords is no basis for a system of government. Supreme executive power derives from a mandate from the masses, not from some farcical aquatic ceremony. – Monty Python and the Holy Grail

6. Dude, jerking off on my mom is one thing. But banging your grandmother and her roommates? That’s like… legendary. – Grandma’s Boy

7. My little brother got his arm stuck in the microwave. So my mom had to take him to the hospital. My grandma dropped acid this morning, and she freaked out. She hijacked a busload of penguins. So it’s sort of a family crisis. – Better Off Dead

8. You think that you can have the duck with a financial statement like this? – LA Story

9. Why’d the chicken cross the road? To get from the left to the right. He stepped out of rank, got hit by a tank . He ain’t no chicken no more.  – Stripes

10. Would you say I have a plethora of pinatas? & – The Three Amigos

11. Like I told my last wife, I said, “Honey, I never drive faster than I can see, and besides… it’s all in the reflexes.”   – Big Trouble In Little China

12. Never let it be said that your anal-retentive attention to detail never yielded positive results. – Dogma

13. Let’s just pause, put that down. Let’s just take a step back. No, I was wrong, I’m sorry, take a step forward. Now, take a step back. Step forward. Back. And then we’re cha-cha-ing!  – Real Genius

14. There’s a dead body in my bed and it smells like shit and it looks even worse. And if you don’t get your ass up here now, my Daddy’s gonna lay you down next to her. I swear to fucking God!

15. OK. My family they got shot down by D.E.A. officers because of a drug problem. I left with the greatest guy on earth. He was a hitman, the best in town, but he died this morning. And if you don’t help me, I’ll be dead by tonight.  – The Professional [Leon]

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