Delicious Placebo

I always have so much to say, but I never feel like saying any of it.

I feel like I’m not allowed to be in a bad mood right now.  I was in a FOUL mood all day.  It totaly sucked.  There was a lot of crying for no reason, and a lot of laying around.  But now I’m doing the final preps for faire tomorrow and I can’t help but feel excited and good.  We drove down to Silver Spring tonight to pick up so that she would have a home and a ride to faire.  She’s the houseguest for the season and so far, she’s a good house guest.  She’s a great lady so this should be a good season.  I am really looking forward to seeing everyone and hugging everyone.  I am looking forward to my morning beesting and meeting all the new friends at the Dragon.  I am even looking forward to seeing the person I hate most so that I can snicker and sneer at him.  I don’t have any qualms about my hate for him, in case anyone was wondering.  I also have no problem telling him to fuck off if he decides he wants to speak to me.  He is sick in the head, and has now declared himself as GOD in his group.  Have I mentioned lately that there are some shitty people in this world?  Oh damn, there goes that foul mood creeping in again. 
Well I guess I’ll have a beesting and try to chill out.  Tomorrow is an early day.  I look forward to seeing everyone in the parking lot tomorrow morning.

I have been in this downward curve for about a week now.  It’s like I got PMS and it just never went away.  So I figured I would try to list the pros and cons of what is going on in my life right now.

-I have gained 15 pounds in the last two weeks. CON
-I have no job, and therefore, no income. CON
-I was able to work for a few days at the faire which earned me a new outfit. PRO
-I have friends who love and care about me. PRO
-My beloved is taking care of me and doing what he can to cover my bills. PRO
-I have lots of free time to play video games. PRO
-I have lots of free time to stress over the fact that I’m jobless and in debt. CON
-I don’t like the medication I am on. CON
-They say without the meds I would be worse… um, PRO?
-Faire starts in just a few days. PRO
-I am scared that I will be too antisocial at faire, because of my moods lately. CON

So I guess.. I dont know, I can count them up but there are probably more cons than pros.  I am just having some kind of pitty party I guess. 
Just a few more days til faire.  If anyone has any job leads or suggestions about how to make some money I would realy like it if you would send the info my way.

Thanks to the help of we are now mostly moved.  All of the furniture is here and yesterday we finally got internet back, after another fight with Comcast.  I am still jobless and still very frustrated and upset with myself.  My mood has improved a bit but not as much as I would like.  I think the new meds are only working a little.  That is to say, they are not as good as my last meds but at least Im not gaining weight as fast as before.
I am really too blah right now to even write anything but I wanted to give a quick update to let the world know we were back online.

So it looks like the moving date is more tentative now.  I have already started packing up some stuff and we will start moving tomorrow after we sign the papers.  and I have decided that it wont be too hard to get the whole apartment moved by Friday (everything but the furniture).  I found some part-time temporary type work that I will be starting on Tuesday, cleaning houses again for the same company as before.  Im only working max of 4 hours a day until my hand is fully healed and until we have moved.  So… in conclusion… if you were interested in helping us move, the date is probably not going to be the 17th anymore.  I bet it’ll end up being next Monday, maybe even this Friday.  Who knows. 
A call out to , any day this week that you are free, we’d be glad to have some help moving.  We’ll be sure to let you know which day the truck is with us and we need the big help.  Can’t wait to see you!

Oh, almost forgot to mention that this weekend was Otakon.  i have not missed it in the last, oh, 6 years or so but I slept through all of yesterday and totally forgot that it was con weekend.  Damn! 

It’s official, we found a place to live.  So now I am putting out the call to my friends to see who can give us a hand.  This us especially important right now because I am one hand short.

Moving is scheduled for Thursday 8/17.  If anybody has a truck thats a huge bonus but we scheduled moving for a weekday because it’s cheaper and easier to rent a truck during the week.  We live in the city and are moving only about a mile.  Any and all help is welcome.  Send me an email if you are available.

We are also looking for furniture so if anyone has stuff they are trying to get rid of, let us know.
Thanks!